The Status Quo...

Pretty much sums up where I'm at right now, and more and more I don't like it, and in a sense feel stuck. I'm still looking for a job and not having any luck at that, and my relationship with my father, seems more fake as time goes on by. It's kind of hard not to feel like that, but it is what it is. He tells you one thing in front of you, and another when he's not near you. Then there's the issue with him being diabetic, and using that as an excuse as to why he goes off on you.

My goal is to get a job and move out, and at this point both seem equally unattainable (at least that's the way it appears). Perhaps the reason I haven't been able to get a job, is well, probably because of my job experience (or lack thereof).

An area between my father and I, is that the more I do things either on my own, or my older brother, he tends to take offense to, and (for lack of better words) acts childish. I have examples I could list, but I don't want to. That's not the point. The point is just showing off a little of what my "status quo" is, and how I really don't like it.

The two biggest things I do like about my "status quo" though is going to the church on Sundays, and home church (college group prior to that). Even though I don't talk as much as I'd like, I really do enjoy it. I really do enjoy being able to sit amongst a group of individuals (friends) and listen to them talk about their view points on topics relating to the sermon, and more.

I left out my movie going. I do enjoy that. Granted it's not quite as fun when you go to the movies on your own all the time, but I do enjoy it. The writing has brought back memories of when I used to write for a few video game websites. I spent three to four years doing that, even got 10-12 video game interviews (with actual companies) that of course are gone now. I do check in on the site from time to time, and do think it's a shame that the owner of the site puts in more of an effort into the site now (when there's not as many members) as it did when I (along with a few others) were able to get the site into the (thousands of members).