I couldn't think of a better title, as that's what it is. This is the second Thanksgiving I'll be spending without my father (first one was a few years ago, when we had a big argument), but this one unlike the last one is because he's no longer with us. This week also marked the 5 month mark since he's been gone.
When the fourth of July came and went, it felt like he was on vacation. Halloween came and went, and it seemed almost normal, as we never did much of anything with him in regards to that for several years now, and the past few weeks, and more so this week, it's set in, where I find my find myself missing him. This was the first year in about 10 years where I didn't go shopping at the store for food to make for Thanksgiving, or a few days after (as we always cooked a separate meal at home a few days later if we ate at a relatives house, or went out to eat, which would be at Knotts Berry Farm. They have an excellent Thanksgiving buffet). It's also going to mark the first time in 10 years where I won't be going out the day after Thanksgiving shopping for gifts, and just taking in the experience of going out on Black Friday. It's something I've enjoyed doing, and I don't think I'll be going out this year.
I guess I'm not really looking forward to tomorrow. However there still are things I'm thankful this year. I'm thankful for my family (both related, and church family), and friends. I'm also thankful that my younger brother is working, and my older brother is still working. I'm thankful that my contest wins have slowly started to pick up again. Lastly, and this is related to my church family, but I'm grateful for being in a home church. It was such a blessing to receive a box of supplies for preparing a Thanksgiving meal at home, and was quite the surprise. An amazing one might I add.
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