Tuesday, December 24, 2013

It's Beggining To Feel A Lot Like An Ordinary Day

This holiday season has come and is quickly going by. Today is Christmas Eve, and it feels like an ordinary day here with our dad no longer around. Tomorrow is Christmas, and it's going to be odd around the house (to say the least). I managed to do some shopping this year, thanks to a prize I won, and a giftcard I won. I however didn't get to send anything to friends this year, as I couldn't afford it. I was only able to afford gifts for my brothers. I won't be opening up anything this year on Christmas morning, but at least my brothers will be able to.


That's what under are tree looks like this year. My younger brother bought a movie for me & a game for my brother (all he could afford this year), and my other brother, well he didn't save for gifts this year. I was able to get them 6 gifts each this year. Hopefully next year there will be more under the tree, as I'm hoping I'll be working this time next year.

Saturday, December 7, 2013

The Holiday Season

Thanksgiving has come and gone, and we're a few weeks away from Christmas. It feels weird without our dad here this holiday season. As of this writing, we haven't put up any decorations yet. Normally we would have had the decorations up the weekend of Thanksgiving, but that hasn't been the case this year. I didn't get to go out this year on Black Friday. My Aunt had told me months ago that we would still keep that tradition going and go out on that day, but as Black Friday approached, she never brought it up to me, and didn't talk to me about it. She made other plans instead.

As of right now, I haven't done any Christmas shopping, and as the day approaches, I'm not sure exactly how much I'll be able to spend this year on gifts for family & friends. Money is tight, not only for myself, but my brothers. In ways it feels like it did back in 2010, or December of 2009, I really forget. That was when my dad, when he was alive, was diagnosed as a Diabetic, and was in the hospital for a large portion of December that year, and was released three days before Christmas. The only difference between then and now is that three days before Christmas this year, he'll still be gone.

Aside from figuring out how much money I'll be able to spend this year, we still have our housing situation to deal with. I haven't had any luck in getting a job, and we may have to rent out a room still. I'm really hoping to get a job soon, so we don't have to rent out a room. Besides, I have no clue whom to rent out a room to.

Back to the holiday season. So far, the only plans we have, is to go over to our Aunt's on Christmas, and that's about it. We don't have any plans as of right now for any other days before then, or after then.